Renee Adams shares poems and books, curating a poetry fence and maintaining a Little Free Library (LFL) in Alexandria, VA. When I happened by on a drizzly February morning, Renee was sweeping broken glass from the gutter, afraid that a car would inadvertently puncture a tire.

“I think a lot of us believe this, that democracy dies in darkness, that certain institutions have a very important role in making sure that there is light.”


I don’t know what to do with these hands.
…
I am overwhelmed
by the irrational ranting
of a world too busy arguing
whether black lives are important enough to fight for
to actually fight for black lives.
And as I stand here…ranting,
I realize it’s because I don’t know
what to do with these hands.
That must hold and protect my son;
they are not bulletproof.
They are made of the same brown material
that have seen so many murdered.
But before I kneel
at the altar of suburban flight.
I realize,
somewhere, somebody is still crying.
Somewhere a black mother
is confiscating all the suspicious clothing her children own,
dressing the scarecrow in the front yard,
and burning our post-racial society in effigy.
Somewhere a young black college student
is being followed on suspicion of being
a young black.
Somewhere “hands up, don’t shoot”
Remix
Somewhere “hands up, don’t shoot”
Somewhere “why’d you shoot me, you asked me to get my i.d”
Remix
Somewhere “why’d you shoot me, you asked me to get my i.d”
…
Somewhere “I’m sorry my music is too loud for you to hear my humanity”
Somewhere “I can’t breathe”
Somewhere someone is toasting the people who are doing this
and the klans are gathering.
Only this time they won’t be wearing hoods,
they will be dressed in suits.
Cloaked by law. Charged with progressing the doctrine
that if you do not look like you belong here
you can be murdered. That if you look
like you belong here you can be murdered.
I will not always be able to protect my son.
I pray that by then
black children and fear
black women and violence
black trans and assault
black queer and endangered
black male and thug
black body and deceased
are no longer synonyms.
At night,
when I take off my 3 year old son’s clothes,
I say “hands up henry.”
He thinks we are playing a game.
I pray that when the time comes
he will know what to do with his hands